a zillion thoughts

went to surf the hrss forum for fun and found out that zg has put the rabbits up for adoption. it's been almost a month already. i'm a bit sad..just a bit.. i think the rabbits were really innocent victims in the relationship. buggy, brownie, stripey and cruzy eventually ended up like bubbles and buzzy. i guessed as much anyway, how can guys possibly take care of rabbits (they had with their exs) for the rest of their lives? having a pet rabbit is almost a lifetime commitment, as their lifespan is about 10-12 years. i dont really picture zg still keeping the rabbits and bringing them to his new home when he gets married. i admit that i am selfish as well, that i didn't want to take back the rabbits. time is one factor, and another thing is, how can i wake up to those old memories everyday? bad ones at it too. i need to start anew. please allow me to be selfish. i really hope bit bits will find a good home.

i'm still wondering if i shld take up the bm mgmt trainee offer. some of my friends think that the pay is peanuts (<600k haha) and the working hours are too long, and that it probably won't value-add my portfolio. and my dad is dead against the idea as well. he thinks that i might even lose my bf. haha. they think that the kp job is probably a better choice. but eventually i still want to try working in the hospitality industry, and the kp job probably won't provide much related experience, whereas i would have had some front end customer service exp if i take up the bm offer.

BUT the lure of a 9-5 office job (ok ok there will be OT i know) at shenton way, dolling up in exec wear and a huge paycheck is probably too hard to resist. if kp calls me, i think i would just jump at it. IF kp calls me that is.

another company which i interviewed for as a graphic designer called me back to go for a computer design test. hur hur...i already gave up hope on that one, as they blew up my confidence like TNT there and then. i accepted the invite, but wld probably not go. i really really need to RETHINK what i WANT and not just jump at any opportunity.....